If you're reading this, I'm dead. I know you've had a hard time since the moment you woke up here. I know there were weeks that you trusted no one, that you felt like the world was crumbling around you, and maybe you still feel like that. Maybe you'll always feel like that. I don't know. But... if that's true, I wish I could have convinced you that people are worth trusting. That even if there are people who've hurt you, there are more people who love you, like everyone here does.
... But I know sometimes, the hurt outweighs the good.
I know you are worth so much more than you believe. It's why I asked you to stay with me. I know what it's like to be alone, and I saw that deep loneliness in you. I wanted to help you see that even if the night is dark, there's a light.
There are a lot of lights here that love you. Pyrrha. Jane. Xander. Everyone else. You don't go through what we have without caring really deeply for those you've stood with. And, hell, I meant it when I called you family. That hasn't changed; it's only gotten more true.
Keep on walking tall, Nari. And remember that I'm proud of you.
I should get that out of the way before anything. Above all, I wanted to make it through to the end with you. I wanted to stand at the end against the Network with you.
You've survived so much. Three of these things, right? It's too much for anyone, but you should know just how incredibly proud of you I am. You mentioned you'd changed a lot, and you have, but I wonder if you know just how much. I watched you grow in just a few weeks to someone who owns how capable she is. I've watched you withdraw, and then come out of your shell again because you know what's important.
I just hope you know how important you are. You care a lot for everyone here, and for those who've died. But as much as you take care of people and make sure they're okay, I hope you do the same. I know it's hard to take care of yourself, when there are so many people to take care of. Even so... you can't spread yourself too thin. Protect the others. Take care of them.
But take care of your heart, too. If there's anything you can do for me now, it's that.
I've always admired you for your strength and your will. It honestly kept me going sometimes, when things were really tough. Everyone here's been an inspiration in some way, but you? Even when things were bad, you kept your head up. You fell back on your kindness and your capacity for love.
When I watched you and Nari, it reminded me that even when things got tough, as long as you kept love in your heart, it'd be okay. This probably sounds sappy as hell, but how much you love each other... that's something no one can ever, ever take away.
Keep each other safe. I know I don't have to tell you that twice. And keep yourself safe, Pyrrha.
You deserve more than dying without a chance to live your life to its absolute fullest. You're so vibrant and full of life and a willingness to keep going and kindness that you make the world better just by being in it. I don't want to see that snuffed out before you can accomplish what you want most and before you can step outside and be greeted by the sun again.
Pyrrha Nikos, I'm proud of you. Thank you for standing by me as long as you have.
Talk about a rough start, huh? I know I gave you a bit of grief in the beginning. I'm sorry for that. Honestly, you shouldn't have even been put in that situation, forced to punish and command the people you cared about to kill each other. You shouldn't have been forced to forget everything that happened to you, even that woman you love.
I'm going to admit that I don't know much about you. I wish we could've talked more. But the conversations we did have, those I'll always cherish. You're a good man, Xander. Despite the mistakes you've made and the terrible things you've endured, that's still true.
Keep an eye on everyone for me. I wish I could, but I trust you. Get them out of here... then come for us. You're a stubborn group. You can do it.
We didn't talk much, really, but... I'm glad to have known you. You're stronger than you think you are. Even so... it's alright to lean on the others. Hell, astrals know I've leaned on enough people in the past. My friends. My family--all of you.
Stick to Xander and Church. They'll protect you, or I'll come back and haunt them myself. Keep being yourself, Arianna; they'll need your spirit more than you probably realize.
You know, I'm never going to get over how much you hit on me. Flirting with an engaged man? Shame on you.
... In all seriousness, you were definitely one of my best friends here. You're an idiot, and you yell a hell of a lot, but that's just part of your charm. You wouldn't be Church without the yelling. And sometimes, that's what we all needed. We get into our heads too much but you're there to pull us back, when you don't get into your own head.
Honestly, without your stupid jokes, things would be a lot bleaker here.
I meant it when I yelled at Price that one time. You know what I'm talking about--when he was being unnecessarily blunt and cold. You're more than just an AI or a ghost of someone else. You're as human as anyone here, more than worthy of love. And you've got a lot of that here. Hell, part of me started thinking of you as a brother, which I guess is pretty appropriate when you finally marry Ardyn. Invite me to the wedding, alright?
This isn't the end, and I'm not going to say goodbye. After all, someday soon, we're going to be able to say hello again, yeah?
Keep the girls safe. Keep dunking on Xander, but not too much. Protect each other, keep making everyone smile. I'm counting on you, Church.
Before I say anything else... I'm sorry. You've watched so many people die, back home, in Starfield, and here. And... I'm sorry that I'm only adding to that. You shouldn't have to deal with so much death and despair.
I wanted to keep you safe, keep on making you smile and laugh. But now that I'm gone, all I can do is hope you do. Stick with the other girls. Watch each other's backs. And Max... keep on taking photos. You're good at it, and it's something you love. It's rare to find someone with as much passion as you have, and it's always been so wonderful to see.
More than that, I've always wanted to tell you just how proud I am of you. Even if you have bad days, weeks, months, you keep on keeping on. And that's the mark of a truly strong person. It doesn't matter if you find yourself slipping; that you can pick yourself back up, and still reach out to others is absolutely incredible.
And hell... if there's anyone who can save Chloe Price, it's her Champion.
Even if it takes us a while to see each other again... You'll always be part of my family, Max.
Thank you. For everything. For always talking to me, for helping me with baking... For opening up. It means more than I could ever tell you. It's funny, just how much people can bond just by talking to each other and telling each other about their lives.
You deserve so much more than your life has given you, Jane. I hope you know that you are so worthy of so much. Your kindness, your determination, your love for your friends... I've watched it throughout the weeks, and I've admired you for it. And you're damn strong. Reviving Xander the way you did, when you were so distressed? I don't think just anyone can do that.
You might be the Champion of Life, Jane. But I think you could also be the Champion of Love.
Keep on baking with that smile of yours. It makes the others happy, and I think more than ever, they'll need it. Keep an eye on Xander; if anyone can keep the guy out of trouble, it's you.
I never told you, but... I've always appreciated your optimism. And our conversations, they're pretty much one of the brightest spots for me in this place. You encouraged me to talk about Luna, and I'm pretty sure it helped me stay optimistic, too. You rubbed off on me, and I'm glad for it.
Don't give up on that part of yourself, Yurika. And keep on working on your cooking. You're... creative, when it comes down to it, which is good. And I know I can count on you to be everyone's captain, too. I know you can get out of here and get to the person you love. He's lucky, having you.
There are so many things I want to say to you, and I'm not really sure where to begin. All these years, I've been looking forward to talking to you again face to face, but we never really got that chance. I was hoping we'd be able to talk in Altissia, but too many things happened.
... You healed me. You saved my life when I was hurt, and I couldn't do a thing to protect you. I've told myself I have no regrets, but that's one that's weighed on my mind all these years. Luna, you should have lived longer. You should have been able to make your own choices. Our marriage might have been arranged, political, but we both wanted it.
And I never got to tell you that. I never got to tell you that I loved you, that I'd fallen in love with you. That exchanging the notebook was one of the things I looked forward to the most.
I'm so, so sorry. I'm so sorry that I couldn't do anything to save you either time. Here, on this damned television show, and back in Altissia. But once we're out of here, once we're together...
I'll do everything I can to protect you and make you happy. I'll tell you this myself, when we meet again, but I wanted to write it down. It makes it more of a promise that way, I think, having it in ink on paper.
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nari nishitani.
If you're reading this, I'm dead. I know you've had a hard time since the moment you woke up here. I know there were weeks that you trusted no one, that you felt like the world was crumbling around you, and maybe you still feel like that. Maybe you'll always feel like that. I don't know. But... if that's true, I wish I could have convinced you that people are worth trusting. That even if there are people who've hurt you, there are more people who love you, like everyone here does.
... But I know sometimes, the hurt outweighs the good.
I know you are worth so much more than you believe. It's why I asked you to stay with me. I know what it's like to be alone, and I saw that deep loneliness in you. I wanted to help you see that even if the night is dark, there's a light.
There are a lot of lights here that love you. Pyrrha. Jane. Xander. Everyone else. You don't go through what we have without caring really deeply for those you've stood with. And, hell, I meant it when I called you family. That hasn't changed; it's only gotten more true.
Keep on walking tall, Nari. And remember that I'm proud of you.
-- Noctis
touko lucis caelum.
I'm sorry.
I should get that out of the way before anything. Above all, I wanted to make it through to the end with you. I wanted to stand at the end against the Network with you.
You've survived so much. Three of these things, right? It's too much for anyone, but you should know just how incredibly proud of you I am. You mentioned you'd changed a lot, and you have, but I wonder if you know just how much. I watched you grow in just a few weeks to someone who owns how capable she is. I've watched you withdraw, and then come out of your shell again because you know what's important.
I just hope you know how important you are. You care a lot for everyone here, and for those who've died. But as much as you take care of people and make sure they're okay, I hope you do the same. I know it's hard to take care of yourself, when there are so many people to take care of. Even so... you can't spread yourself too thin. Protect the others. Take care of them.
But take care of your heart, too. If there's anything you can do for me now, it's that.
One last thing. I love you.
-- Noctis
pyrrha nikos.
I've always admired you for your strength and your will. It honestly kept me going sometimes, when things were really tough. Everyone here's been an inspiration in some way, but you? Even when things were bad, you kept your head up. You fell back on your kindness and your capacity for love.
When I watched you and Nari, it reminded me that even when things got tough, as long as you kept love in your heart, it'd be okay. This probably sounds sappy as hell, but how much you love each other... that's something no one can ever, ever take away.
Keep each other safe. I know I don't have to tell you that twice. And keep yourself safe, Pyrrha.
You deserve more than dying without a chance to live your life to its absolute fullest. You're so vibrant and full of life and a willingness to keep going and kindness that you make the world better just by being in it. I don't want to see that snuffed out before you can accomplish what you want most and before you can step outside and be greeted by the sun again.
Pyrrha Nikos, I'm proud of you. Thank you for standing by me as long as you have.
-- Noctis
xander.
Talk about a rough start, huh? I know I gave you a bit of grief in the beginning. I'm sorry for that. Honestly, you shouldn't have even been put in that situation, forced to punish and command the people you cared about to kill each other. You shouldn't have been forced to forget everything that happened to you, even that woman you love.
I'm going to admit that I don't know much about you. I wish we could've talked more. But the conversations we did have, those I'll always cherish. You're a good man, Xander. Despite the mistakes you've made and the terrible things you've endured, that's still true.
Keep an eye on everyone for me. I wish I could, but I trust you. Get them out of here... then come for us. You're a stubborn group. You can do it.
And be careful.
-- Noctis
arianna.
We didn't talk much, really, but... I'm glad to have known you. You're stronger than you think you are. Even so... it's alright to lean on the others. Hell, astrals know I've leaned on enough people in the past. My friends. My family--all of you.
Stick to Xander and Church. They'll protect you, or I'll come back and haunt them myself. Keep being yourself, Arianna; they'll need your spirit more than you probably realize.
-- Noctis
leonard church.
You know, I'm never going to get over how much you hit on me. Flirting with an engaged man? Shame on you.
... In all seriousness, you were definitely one of my best friends here. You're an idiot, and you yell a hell of a lot, but that's just part of your charm. You wouldn't be Church without the yelling. And sometimes, that's what we all needed. We get into our heads too much but you're there to pull us back, when you don't get into your own head.
Honestly, without your stupid jokes, things would be a lot bleaker here.
I meant it when I yelled at Price that one time. You know what I'm talking about--when he was being unnecessarily blunt and cold. You're more than just an AI or a ghost of someone else. You're as human as anyone here, more than worthy of love. And you've got a lot of that here. Hell, part of me started thinking of you as a brother, which I guess is pretty appropriate when you finally marry Ardyn. Invite me to the wedding, alright?
This isn't the end, and I'm not going to say goodbye. After all, someday soon, we're going to be able to say hello again, yeah?
Keep the girls safe. Keep dunking on Xander, but not too much. Protect each other, keep making everyone smile. I'm counting on you, Church.
-- Nyactis
max caulfield.
Before I say anything else... I'm sorry. You've watched so many people die, back home, in Starfield, and here. And... I'm sorry that I'm only adding to that. You shouldn't have to deal with so much death and despair.
I wanted to keep you safe, keep on making you smile and laugh. But now that I'm gone, all I can do is hope you do. Stick with the other girls. Watch each other's backs. And Max... keep on taking photos. You're good at it, and it's something you love. It's rare to find someone with as much passion as you have, and it's always been so wonderful to see.
More than that, I've always wanted to tell you just how proud I am of you. Even if you have bad days, weeks, months, you keep on keeping on. And that's the mark of a truly strong person. It doesn't matter if you find yourself slipping; that you can pick yourself back up, and still reach out to others is absolutely incredible.
And hell... if there's anyone who can save Chloe Price, it's her Champion.
Even if it takes us a while to see each other again... You'll always be part of my family, Max.
-- Noctis
jane crocker.
Thank you. For everything. For always talking to me, for helping me with baking... For opening up. It means more than I could ever tell you. It's funny, just how much people can bond just by talking to each other and telling each other about their lives.
You deserve so much more than your life has given you, Jane. I hope you know that you are so worthy of so much. Your kindness, your determination, your love for your friends... I've watched it throughout the weeks, and I've admired you for it. And you're damn strong. Reviving Xander the way you did, when you were so distressed? I don't think just anyone can do that.
You might be the Champion of Life, Jane. But I think you could also be the Champion of Love.
Keep on baking with that smile of yours. It makes the others happy, and I think more than ever, they'll need it. Keep an eye on Xander; if anyone can keep the guy out of trouble, it's you.
... And I'm sorry for leaving you all. Take care.
--Noctis
captain yurika misumaru.
I never told you, but... I've always appreciated your optimism. And our conversations, they're pretty much one of the brightest spots for me in this place. You encouraged me to talk about Luna, and I'm pretty sure it helped me stay optimistic, too. You rubbed off on me, and I'm glad for it.
Don't give up on that part of yourself, Yurika. And keep on working on your cooking. You're... creative, when it comes down to it, which is good. And I know I can count on you to be everyone's captain, too. I know you can get out of here and get to the person you love. He's lucky, having you.
We all are, really.
Thank you for everything.
--Noctis
lunafreya nox fleuret.
There are so many things I want to say to you, and I'm not really sure where to begin. All these years, I've been looking forward to talking to you again face to face, but we never really got that chance. I was hoping we'd be able to talk in Altissia, but too many things happened.
... You healed me. You saved my life when I was hurt, and I couldn't do a thing to protect you. I've told myself I have no regrets, but that's one that's weighed on my mind all these years. Luna, you should have lived longer. You should have been able to make your own choices. Our marriage might have been arranged, political, but we both wanted it.
And I never got to tell you that. I never got to tell you that I loved you, that I'd fallen in love with you. That exchanging the notebook was one of the things I looked forward to the most.
I'm so, so sorry. I'm so sorry that I couldn't do anything to save you either time. Here, on this damned television show, and back in Altissia. But once we're out of here, once we're together...
I'll do everything I can to protect you and make you happy. I'll tell you this myself, when we meet again, but I wanted to write it down. It makes it more of a promise that way, I think, having it in ink on paper.
We'll meet again. I'll make sure of that.
Yours, forever and more,
Noctis